Monday, October 1, 2018

[Prose]: Shadow and light

Shadows are always beneath a light.
Shadows make light shine bright.

But what happens when shadow meets light?

One more day passed, feeling hopeless and defeated.

Nothing has been in my favour lately,

... nothing.

I have tried and tried to speak out. The frustration is building inside. I could scream, but I would only attract attention. I have become nothing more than a shadow.. ever present, just barely noticable.

Would you notice me if I was gone?..

There is so much I want to say, but words are.. not easy..

A little hope I see everyday, just a bit of light going past me.

I chased the light one day. It danced, it twinkled, it was bright.. sometimes mellow.. but always lit.

Do shadows and light ever go hand in hand?

There is always a shadow even under the flame they said.

I think they are right.

Shadows are essential.

I just need to rise from my doubts. I am needed, I am important. I just need a chance to prove it.

I seeked my chance, once.. twice.. many many times..

But..

But..

The chance doesn't come to me.. it's frustrating..

I am.. it is... Arrrrghhhh.. I need to get out and take my chances!

Yes! I must.

Today I will!

I will prove that I am what you need.

I got up from my dullness.. my feet were on auto-pilot. My pace quickened. My heart was racing. It was exhilarating.. a sense of purpose at last! I knew this time I won't fail.

This time I will make it!

I will prove myself.

I am stronger than this!

It will be obvious.. my worth.. I know it will.. it would be.. because it is me.

I saw the light, pulled it out.. but she seemed confused.. like she did not know me.

She will know soon enough. Of course she would. I have been her shadow for so long now. She needs me. In the rain, in the cold days to watch over her.

I will show her I am her strength. Once she knows who I really am, she will never need to be afraid. I will protect her light. I will let her shine bright everyday.

I tried to open my mouth and tell her all this, but she screamed. I muffled her scream. I tried to talk to her, but she bit me. I held her back. I tried to talk to her. But she was struggling, so I just made her immobile.

Now she was listening. Oh.. wait she is still struggling...

Ok..

Now.. she is fine..

I started to talk, but words seem to come out wrong. I waited for her response, but none were coming.

I checked, her eyes seemed closed. Skin was so warm and filled with her beautiful light. She was always radiant with life. That's what makes her special. Especially in the mornings when she wakes up. I have seen her, her most radiant with the little bit of sunshine through her windows.

I had to work hard for it.. her little glimpse.. I waited a whole week.. on long cold nights ..outside in freezing air.. but she warms me up everytime. My light.

Why was she not responding? I checked.. I patted her cheek again. My hands were smudged with something..

Oh it's blood. Where did that come from?

I am not bleeding.. that's good.

Her face seems ok. She is fine too.

But there is a small pool behind her.. oh.. oh... Oh no!

I..

She..

I didn't.. I wouldn't! ..

How could I?!

This is not ok.. it's not how is meant to be!

It was not me!

I would never..

Not in a million years...

She is my light! My light! I am supposed to protect her!

I will protect her! I will protect her!

I held her. I held her work both my arms. Surely.. surely my love would revive her.

I held her all night long. Her light burning dimly..

It was perfect to be next to her. My whole world was perfect. I have been longing to touch her for so long. Can a shadow touch the light?

I think I just did.

I am happy now. She is in my arms. We will spend the eternity like this in each other's arms.

Just me.. and her..

Just us. Forever.

As we sat like this.. her light was with me. I was protecting her light. I was surrounding her from anything that can take away her light. I was right where I should be.

I woke up. Her light was all within me. But, I still feel empty...

Shadows are always beneath a light.
Shadows make light shine bright.

But what happens when shadow meets light?

Shadow stays and out goes light.