Friday, October 3, 2014

My journey to better

It was uninteresting, repetitive and colorless. I was tired and ready to push one more item to the later not now list. I looked at the list, the length of it was very discouraging indeed.

I started to read the things I had wished to achieve one by one. Learn flute, self defense, writing as a habit, own a bike and many more items. I let myself down on so many of my dreams. And another trivial item was to become a part of this list, whose marker ink did not budge with just a duster any more.

Who was I making these promises to? What was I losing by breaking them? Why was I making the promises at all? The convoluted answers did not make sense. But one did.

I was making promises to myself. I would lose a little spirit in me that kept me ticking. I was looking at myself to be better than what I am, wanting to strive to be better. It just was me trying to be better and nothing else.

I did not push my jog on the list. I picked up my shoes and hummed the little tune that kept me going and got out. Just that step was hard, the rest was not so hard. I touched a new record against myself. I smiled and hummed out loud! My victory song. My triumph.

And thus, I started ticking off the perpetual to do list. But this time I changed its name to "my journey to better"

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